Rebel to Redeemed: Finding Forgiveness
I realized that I had to allow myself to feel regardless of the emotion, to acknowledge that emotion and go with it. I kept a notebook and began to journal my feelings. For that first year and a half, I wrote Duncan a letter in my journal every day. Reading back over these, some are filled with love and other entries are filled with anger. {Note: I did not mail or send these letters}.
Duncan tried to weasel his way back into my life, but I saw the lies and tricks for what they were. In time I realized the best course was to completely have no contact. I also took other preventative measures for my safety, such as not telling him where I was, using a PO Box, not forwarding my mail and not having a listed telephone number.
I also discovered that forgiving him was doing me the most good. I was able to let go and move forward through forgiveness and not have it hold me back.
However, just because I forgave him DOES NOT mean that I have forgotten.
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