Getting Real with one self

After three years in an abusive relationship and twenty years of bad decisions, I’d come to the end of myself.

I was broken and depressed.

I could blame others,but finally had to look in the mirror and accept my part in all that had happened

I was grieving over all that had happened.  I’d been wronged time and time again.  However, I began to realize that while I’d been wronged, I’d also done wrong.  I wasn’t perfect and made plenty of mistakes and missteps along the way.

I had to get real with myself.  I had to take responsibility for my actions and my part in my relationships.

This wasn’t easy, especially in the beginning.   However, a counselor said “stop being a victim and take responsibility.  Only then can you become a survivor and move forward.”

Did I want to hear that? No

Did I need to hear that? Yes

So, I accepted my part, owned up to my mistakes and began to get real with myself.

Maybe now I could begin to pull back the layers that had built up over the years.

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