Rebel to Redeemed: Finally Redeemed
By summer 2008 life had become very difficult. Nothing I did was right for Duncan and Mary. I’d been through numerous jobs and I had no friends.
I was living on an emotional roller coaster and I wasn’t sure how much more I could endure.
In August, we went to Scotland for several weeks to supposedly visit with Duncan’s “family”. I knew something was wrong, once we arrived and there was no family to visit. I was made to feel stupid for even asking, although that’s all we discussed for the months leading up to our vacation.
The abuse escalated to an all-time high when Duncan tried to force Mary’s husband and myself into an unsavory situation.
I couldn’t take any more. One Sunday morning I decided to get away for some time to myself and attend the early morning service at a local kirk {church}. The early morning service had been cancelled and I was expected back before the regular service began.
I was lost and didn’t know what to do, and then I saw the prayer room. I entered that room and poured my heart all to Jesus. I told him everything on my mind and heart and told him everything that was going on.
I asked for his forgiveness and that he please come into my heart again and asked for him to help me change my life. I confessed that I couldn’t change it on my own.
Slowly, I began to surrender each and every part of my life to him. First my family and job situations. Then I told him if he wanted me to use my music, writing and speaking for him then to use me as he would. Finally, I surrendered the one thing {person} I’d always refused to surrender—my relationship with Duncan.
I admitted to being wrong and that I should have listened years earlier. I thanked God for protecting me and getting me to this point.
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