A Childhood of Depression

Depression has been a part of my life for as long as I can remember.

For years I thought something was wrong with me because I had a perpetual state of sadness that seemed to hang over me.

However, a better understanding of personalities helps me to understand that melancholy is my dominant personality state.  This is part of my genetic makeup.  But,  I have chosen not to allow depression to define me.

Since childhood I have been extremely creative.  Only through discussions with Mama in the last few years, have I began to understand how much of this was squelched as a child.  This wasn’t done purposely, but when I wanted to show off and express my latest skills or talents, I had some family members that had no interest

So, to deal I began to bury those skills and talents.

Moving around in those formative years did not help.  The opportunity to find a school or group to become involved with that would nurture my abilities and self-esteem were non-existent.

So without realizing it I was hiding behind the shell I’d built around myself.

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