In the Struggle: You Are What You Eat

Recently, a friend of mine posted a picture of this sign.

The sign says, “what you eat in private, you wear in public.”

This really gave me pause to stop and think.

How many times over the years had I gone on a binge of one kind or another?  Sometimes there was a craving, was I lonely or depressed.  Other times I felt that I had a valid reason because I was hungry or had a migraine.

I would overindulge and cram food into my mouth.  However, then I would hide the trash and evidence of my weakness.  I thought no one was aware of my binge eating.

After all they didn’t know what I ate in private when no one else was around.

They may not KNOW but they could see it.  The evidence was clear for everyone to see.  I carried it on my body with me everywhere I went.  I was unable to shed the true evidence of my deception.

In the long run the person I was truly hurting was myself.  Everyone else could see what I was doing to myself, even when I couldn’t.

I’ve worked hard to overcome this binge eating, but it’s not been easy.  I’ve had to learn to be honest with myself and admit why I was truly eating.

The more I’m honest with myself the less I eat in secret.  This is making it much easier for the weight to come off, because I am not sabotaging myself.

I’m still a work in progress, but most days I find myself taking baby steps to move forward.

Do you hide what you eat?