Seeing the Change
After asking “God please help me to find the joy only you can provide,” I began to see a change.
I’m not saying that I’m perfect and life never gets difficult. There are times when life is very hard and the circumstances do bring me down.
However, I was discovering that even when things did not go my way, I had that joy deep down.
I knew this wasn’t my doing because I’d tried to change that for years. This was God’s doing.
There are still times when circumstances get me down and I struggle with depression. However, I don’t let it completely encompass me.
Recently, I had a life changing situation take place. This was unexpected and very hurtful. The old me would have allowed the negative self-talk to creep in. The old me may have even attempted suicide.
However, none of that was an option for me. I still struggled through all of the emotions of betrayal and grief, but I turned to the ultimate provider of answers. I spent hours fasting, praying and studying my Bible for answers.
This was the first time when I really saw the change that God was bringing about in my heart.
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