Following My Beliefs
I was raised in a traditional, Christian family where marriage was meant for life. The idea of being the first in my immediate family to divorce was a hard pill for me to swallow. After all, I’d heard what was said about others that divorced.
I was raised to believe that when you married, you remained married until death do us part.
Even after my first marriage ended and I was in the second relationship, my religious beliefs were still so strong that I had a difficult time leaving and once again admitting failure in my relationship.
I struggled with the decision and finally called out to God in my pain. I was taken to the scripture, Proverbs 25:24, “It is better to live on a corner of the roof than to share a house with a quarrelsome wife”. I didn’t have a quarrelsome wife, but I had a quarrelsome husband and conniving sister-in-law, so didn’t that count?
Yet, I still felt responsible and worried about my husband and his sister and their needs. After all, I was working three jobs and about 80 hours a week to help us make ends meet. Yet, I did not see one cent of what I made and was not allowed to pay my own bills.
I really struggled with this for a while, but God reminded me that they were able to make ends meet before I came along and would make ends meet once I left.
One concern after another that the devil used to try to keep me in this world of tumult and turmoil, I turned over to God and allowed him to reveal the truth to me and work things out for his glory.
Do you struggle with following your beliefs?